"I created my world in exactly this way so that I may realize my true inner being, the Self. I put in all the necessary stuff just for me. I thank my Self for making it so comfortable in a tropical nature setting while I'm doing it. I thank my Self for putting in the right mix of people to give me the exact right measures of desperation and hope. I thank my Self for putting me in situations where I clearly see suffering and grace. I thank my Self for giving me the courage, the faith, the strength to go through with it. I thank my Self for trying to shield myself from suffering through life, whether it was with meditation, alcohol, sex, shopping, reading, misunderstanding, God or the internet. I thank my Self for having so much love for me that I just kept on going even if at times all I saw was darkness.
I have no free will in this so I can just let go of the concept of free will. I will end up where I am supposed to be. I will find joy in your expression, all that ever was, all that ever will be.
The only motive in the world is love. I just SAW it and my heart exploded. It is only from our limited perspective love appears as not love."